i just got out of the hospital, i was in there for a bit cuz i "hurt" myself, and what bugs me is when they ask you questions like, "why would you do you hate yourself? youre such a beautiful girl" or "tell me about your past"

one, i dont hate myself, i just get tired of all the bullshit that is laid on my shoulders everyday, helping so many people close to me and never hearing a thatnk you or an i owe you one

two, my past hasnt been the worst, but it hasnt been the greatest either. i have an abusive dad that i try not to associate myself with as much as possible, a mother who tries to be there for me but then blames all my problems on me being gay, an older sister whos a crack addict and a con artist, and a little sister whos a spoiled brat but i get along with her the best.........

yes i seem to be rambling on, but the damn hospital wont let me near a computer or let me write for that matter.... so this is my way to vent.

thank you for listening to my problems and comment if youd like